Red Raspberries

So, you know how there are some foods that you hated when you were younger and never will try them because you assume you still hate them. Well, the other day I tried a red raspberry. Now, growing up I hated them because I thought they were sour and they have like little hairs all over them. I also do not like preserves....but mainly it was the hairy part,...that grossed me out. Well, low and behold I tried one the other day and I LOVED it! It was soo good! I seriously kicked myself because for so many years now I have been missing out! Now I can add more more thing to the list of healthy foods that I eat! Yippee!

Between the Lines

Sometimes I find it hard to live between the lines of feeling grateful and yet still ungrateful. I of all people should be the most grateful person in the world. I was told I had the slimmest of margins that I would ever walk again....and yet I am. Grateful.....yes, yet I still become so ungrateful at times. I want more. I don't just want partial healing, I want complete healing. I want to be exactly the same as I was before the accident. The truth is, I'm not. So I daily straddle this fence of feeling so blessed and yet not blessed enough. I often feel guilty that I have these thoughts that the Lord didn't do enough for me. And then it hits me and it's like the Lord looks me straight in the eyes and says...... I died for you Ang.....you were not to live, but I died instead. Are you completely healed? No, but you are alive and free. The part of you that is still broken is only a daily reminder that you are in need of the Lord everyday. I read this verse this week and was blown away.

This is what the Lord says:
"Your wound is incurable,
your injury beyond healing.
There is no one to plead your cause,
no remedy for your sore,
no healing for you...
because your guilt is so great and your sins so many.
Why do you cry out over your wound,
your pain that has no cure?
But because of your great guilt and many sins
I have done these things to you.......
I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,
declares the Lord.
~Jeremiah 30:12-15; 17

Not, because of your lack of guilt and being sin free.....but because I do sin and have guilt he chose to heal.........I don't understand that.......all I can do is stand in awe and be reminded of the blessing and choose daily to be grateful for a life I was given that I don't even deserve.....broken or not broken.